So here’s the thing, just because I appear to be really optimistic and strong minded about my disease and ongoing issues, does not mean I’m Super Woman. I may rock the cape look well, and even pull off wearing my underwear on the outside of my clothing, but positive imagery stops there.
I’m starting to see that people around me think I’m indestructible. I think my optimism and can-do attitude has backfired a little. Yes, I like to stay open minded, and I don’t let my disease get the best of me. But here’s the most important thing to remember… I’m still human! Just because I have a smile on my face, or keep my pain to myself, does not mean I’m not in pain! Or that I feel fine! Cause FYI… I feel like crap!
It appears that people are under the impression that just because I hide my emotions or physical pain, that I in fact have none. I recently fractured my right ribcage in several places and I can’t even vocalize how much pain I’m in. It’s excruciating. But because I’m always so bright-eyed and bushy tailed about things, I think it’s coming off like I’m indestructible and in turn feel nothing.
I feel. I’m in pain. Chronic arthritic pain and fresh new severe broken rib pain. It hurts. Moving hurts. Breathing hurts. I am woman, hear me roar. But also I am woman with chronic Rheumatoid Disease and a laundry list of other bad issues. Please treat me accordingly.