The deafening darkness
Blackness. Or maybe it was all a bright white. Maybe there was no color at all. Just silence. Maybe that quiet seemed like it would never end.
All I could concentrate on with pain. It seemed like pain was all around me, infiltrating every bone in my body, every piece of flesh. It was so dark and solemn, everything seemed so far away and out of my reach, and yet it was deafening in the darkness.
Where was this place that I had been brought to? Had I closed my eyes and found the place that I would breathe my last breath? Was this the gate that I was meant to cross? How did I even get here? How did any of us get here? Was I meant to be here at all?
Noise. Shouting, machines whirring, everything seemed so loud. It was too loud. The pain hurt. The noise hurt. I just wanted everything to stop. I was ready for it all to stop…
Vision blurred. I saw people running around me, they’re fuzzy outlines making no sense to me as my eyes opened and closed. The pain. The pain was deafening. I just wanted it to stop. I was ready for it to stop. I just wanted it to stop.
I close my eyes, and left them closed for a while. I opened them again, blurred lines still running about… I closed them. Open. Close. They moved with the time of the beeping machines around me, alerting people to my heart rate as it slowed, slowed, slowed…
Finally, the pain overwhelmed me all at once. My breath stopped, my arms went limp, my body had decided… My eyes closed and all I saw was white. It was everywhere. And I was everywhere. I just wanted everything to stop, and it did. But only for a moment.
Only for a moment.