“If” is not the question you should be asking
If I’m in pain all the time, you may ask is it even worth it, to do the things that I do.
If it’s so painful to run errands, pick up your meds, and go grocery shopping, why do you do it?
If you’re in so much pain, then why get dressed and put make up on, and go out into the world, why not just stay home so that you can sleep and sleep?
If the sickness is as bad as you say, then why bother getting up every day, why don’t you just stay in bed?
If you’re in as much pain as you say, why are you not in a hospital, why aren’t people like you talking about how much pain they are in, and why have we only heard about it from you?
If your disease causes as much weight gain as you say, how come we haven’t seen in it others?
If is not the question you should be asking.
Because IF you truly listened, watched, and heard, you would know the answers to your questions.
That if I didn’t force myself out of bed and do the things I do, I’d become a prisoner inside my body. That if I stayed in bed I would get sicker and sicker as hope would be lost. That I’ve been to the hospital several times already, don’t you remember when I told you? That there are thousands of people around you every day that suffer from sickness, pain, and weight gain due to illness, but that all you see is fat, and so you judge without question.
If you really wanted to help instead of judging, you would look at me with eyes wide open, and see my reality for what it is, instead of judging me for something you refuse to understand.
Posted on January 26, 2017, in The Journey and tagged chronic illness, chronic pain, invisible illness, lonliness, rheumatoid arthritis, Rheumatoid Disease, sickness, struggle. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.